behind closed doors

I never liked doors.
I was obsessive-compulsive as a kid.

I'm slightly handicapped - till this day I still cannot fully understand how "right" and "left" differ from each other. Even though I'm right-handed myself, I feel a bit helpless in this world where so many things are single-sided.

When I first started writing I wrote with my left hand, and everything that came out was in reversed direction. My teacher spent a great deal of time pointing out the difference but I simply could not get it. I successfully convinced both my teacher and myself that I was stupid. She gave up, shoved the pencil into my right hand and forever changed me into a right-handed person.

As I grew I couldn't stop being one sided - I don't write in reverse anymore, everything in English and simplified Chinese is printed from left to right.

It's all boring and predictable. I'm so boring a person now.